|i'll be my mirror
||[Nov. 30th, 2006|05:14 pm]
people would be surprised to learn exactly how vain i am. or maybe they wouldn't be. i'm not one to judge that. you people are! ...some to judge that. anyway, illustrating this point: i have spent countless minutes (51 if i were to take a stab) hemming and hawing about this one sportcoat i bought. taking it on and off. putting it over baggier shirts. tighter shirts. looser/tighter pants. over hoodies. i just can't figure out if i can pull it off.|
that's the main thing about fashion, after all. trends don't matter, "rules" don't matter. all that matters is whether you personally can pull off a certain look. does it look good on you? and do you believe in it?
this jacket i'm talking about, it is a jem. we're talkin yves saint-laurent, classic blue blazer with jaunty shoulders. two buttons. it looks beautiful. and i have a solid navy yves saint-laurent tie that matches it perrrrfectly. it's unreal.
the only thing? the blazer kinda sorta doesn't fit. maybe. i don't know. it's hard to tell. which is why it's slowly turning me into even more of a girl than i am already. it's a tiny too big in the shoulders and a tiny too big in the waist. a pinch too long in the sleeves, but that's easily amendable as it's already been let out a bit.
but i wore it today. i thought, got some meetings, it's nice out, so no overcoat required: gonna look good. and i do. i think. but i can't help but vacillate on it. i mean, this coat is so quality (considering the $36 i dropped on it at beacon's closet) that it should look AMAZING. i should be amassing a trail of ladies like the pied fucking piper. but no, i vacillate. one second i'm absolutely slaying some lucky someone who's checking out the goods, the next i'm recoiling from a mirror on display at a frame store. it makes me look like i'm playing in my dad's sportcoat! i'm skinny enough as it is! no, nuh-uh, i look good!! this look is SO QUALITY. ahh. maybe i should just give it up to the younger, slightly bigger brother for xmas. but more vacillation: MAYBE I SHOULD JUST GET BIGGER AROUDN THE SHOULDERS ANd BUILd uP MY ABS A BIT>> YES!!! i am already on that route. (KINDA!!)
AHHHH now i'm the equivalent of a lady buying something too small in the hopes that she'll stick to her diet. i tell ya, YSL, you'll be the death of my remaining masculinity.